Anyway I sat down today and wrote on the areas that I would like to work on in 2013.
I tend to be very hard on myself as a parent. I cannot recall how I became such a dedicated hands on love my children more than myself type of parent. I used to be a selfish go-getter in the corporate world. My dedication to both my girls has become both my greatest strength and my greatest weakness. I always push aside my own needs and told myself, "it can wait". It snapped last year. I am going to make time for myself and my hobbies, this year.
2) I need to make time for God.
I wrote a little about my spiritual life HERE and shared my doubts. I am happy to let all my worried friends know that I finally made a commitment to God and a promise to myself last Christmas. I will go to church every Sunday. I have successfully woken up and gone to Sunday service since then and I hope and pray that I will continue to do so.
3) I need to put in more hours of sleep every day.
I have very bad sleeping habits. I am determined to work at this year and clock in uninterrupted 6 hours daily.
4) I need to think before I speak.
By nature I am a brutally honest person and would speak my mind without thinking twice. I would like to make an effort to be more sensitive in my choice of words so that I do not make a few of my extremely sensitive friends unhappy, unnecessarily.
5) I need more coffee breaks.
Whenever I take off for some me-time, I feel guilty. I am going to learn to chill-out without guilt this year and enjoy my alone time to the fullest.
6) I need to unpack all my baggages from my past
My growing up years were not easy. It was tough physically and emotionally. I have been working very hard at unpacking all my baggages from my past. I am stuck at the final two pieces for years. I am going to make more effort to remove them from the attic and unpack them once and for all.
7) I need to believe that I am unique, special, beautiful ........
I am a perfectionist and set a high bar for myself (other than cooking, haha!). I have never met my own expectations and often feel that I fall short as a parent and wife. My better half thinks I am nuts. I am going to try not to be too hard on myself, not to be an OCD, and to love myself more.